So,we moved into a new ward that is flooded with kids. I am telling you I have never seen so many kids in a ward in my life. Now it makes church seriously a little crazy. I am not saying that I don't like kids, but when there are kids surrounding me in every meeting and class, crying, talking, moving, grabbing, and wiping their snot on items near my daughter I get tense and crazy. Every week we choose a new seat in sacrament meeting hoping to avoid the craziness but no matter where we sit there are kids behind us, in front of us always turning around at us, and kids on the side of us taking Anna's toys and books and all of them have snot coming out of their noses. Maybe I get so tense because I work with sick kids at the hospital every week with RSV, pneumonia, and other crazy diagnosis' and I don't want Anna to end up there. Or maybe it is just my expectations, I expect to be able to go to church sit and listen to the speakers or teachers, and feel the spirit; however, that is not happening. I can't concentrate. It is probably having my own toddler on my lap too that is distracting me.
Besides all the craziness, some times it is quite entertaining. This morning the little 3 year old in front of us kept turning around and telling Anna to talk to him. He was getting so frustrated and mad at Anna because she wouldn't talk to him even though I whispered to him that Anna did not know how to talk yet. Anna just stared at him and he scolded back at her, "Talk to me!! Why aren't you talking to me." Kent and I couldn't help up crack up at the scene. Another little girl sitting in front of us asked her sister during the sacrament, "Do you believe in Jesus?"
Anyway, I guess I have just been overwhelmed by distracting kids in my ward and also trying to keep a toddler entertained while sitting in our laps for 3 hours straight while still trying to get something out of church! Almost impossible; it requires faith. And soon I will have 2 babies not yet in nursery.
oh Dayna. dayna dayna. It happens around age 30. It happens when kids get mobile and church gets loud, but especially when you have more than one: your faith waivers. I mean this seriously. You don't ever doubt that the Book of Mormon is true, or that Joseph Smith restored the gospel of Jesus Christ. But you doubt that church does anything but make your weekend miserable. Church is not a place to feel the spirit or gain anything other than RSV and the flu. It is a nightmare. Getting out the door, being there, getting home. It takes over 6 hours start to finish and it screws up your Monday, providing you didn't bring home a disease. Then it screws up the whole week.
ReplyDeleteYou are entering the phase where Church is hard. It is not very uplifting. It is too long. It is never at a good time as your kids will all be tired and need food at some point during the middle of it.
I have been told this by good sources: it gets better once all your kids are 5 and up. So, we have awhile.
I hope you don't think I am too cynical. I am dead serious.
Now, go have a FHE about how to not become like your friend from Scooping it up.
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I understand! Pur previous ward had five nurseries. FIVE!! All with double digit number of kids. Can u say zoo?! That ward reminded me of NYC: high energy and a constant buzz. I like my new ward with more diversity. And I too get freaked out about my girls catching something mysterious from another child. I wouldn't be able to handle one of my girls in the hospital with RSV.
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